I wish I had some time to do game creation. If I had the time, I would likely struggle knowing what to make though honestly. I have vague ideas, but nothing concrete, which is a problem. I can think of interesting worlds, but nothing comes to mind when it comes to mechanics.
I think my Platt is improving, though getting the hang of the changing German sentence order is tough honestly. I wonder if anyone else breaks earphones as much or as quickly as I do. I don't know how I do it, but I very often have to buy new ones. Not great for the environment. I was walking with my son and wife today and we were treated to a beautiful cherry blossom (though it may have been a different try) display. My current word of choice is resplendent. I go through phases of liking a particular word and wanting to repeat it.
So, I have been trying a new method of language learning... well two really. One I may have mentioned is making my own Minecrft resource packs and adding audio recordings of words I want to learn. Another method is via the use of a chat bot. Basically just having a list of sentences and putting them together with, whilst filling in missing words with English. I slowly add more and more words and forms over time. Both methods seem to be somewhat effective.
Bu toigh leam tuill' dealbhan tharraing ach chan eil tim agam idir.
Today I am thinking about my son. I have noticed in him some habits and patterns that are very reminiscent of autism. I don't know if he is or isn't autistic just as I don't know whether I am or am not autistic myself, but I have been seeing things in my son for example he is almost 2 and doesn't really babble very often at all and doesn't speak at all. there are other things such as his strict need for routines and he has his own little rules that he has to follow. The most difficult part is that he doesn't present in a typical fashion. I suppose I don't either though I am old so who knows. My wife and I are going to get him assessed at some point in the future. it's weird because all of this autism stuff has been a very recent thing for me, I only started suspecting that I might be autistic very recently within the last four months. The only reason I started to wonder about it was due to reading about it and having people around me who were diagnosed with it. My nephew, my cousin, my cousin's son, and my mother's cousin's son all have autism. much of my family also has ADHD though I don't. As you can imagine family gatherings for my family have always been chaotic at best and absolutely hellish at worst. I don't know if I will go and get assessed myself because I don't think it would do much for me aside from give me clarity and if clarity will cost me thousands of dollars, it's not really worth it.
's ann h-uile latha tha mi feuchainn ri faclan ùr ionnsachadh. fhuair mi "tacain mach bhon chloich" an raoir.
So this weekend has been filled with... well as always, work. I like my job, but I often find it very tiring when I Have to teach students that aren't particularly interested or I'm not entirely sure what they are interested in or I find to be hard to understand or read etc. I think one of the issues I have is when I know someone and I have gotten to understand their patterns and the way that they do things the way that they speak etc. it makes it easier for me to interact with them unless they happen to be a somewhat volatile person. With new people however it is a lot harder. The best way I can describe it is a sense of uneasiness and being unsure of what's happening. I very much dislike that feeling and would prefer to in someways have control over whatever it is that I am involved in not in the sense of being a control freak but internal control. If things are not recognizable to me or I don't know what to expect then I find it a lot harder to deal with but if I have an idea of what's happening and for example if my student is very interested in learning English and I can talk to them about it because language is a big area of interest for me then it's not a big problem. unfortunately I don't get to choose who the students are so I often have to teach students that don't fit into my perfect pattern and thus find myself sometimes with a bit of a dilemma.
Chan eil mi cinnteach air an dòigh 's fheàrr a' ghàidhlig ionnasachadh, gu sònraichte gu ìre àrd. 's aithne domh a' ghàidhlig uisig h-uile latha ach 's ann an còmhnaidh tha mi dèanamh mearachdan. 's ann air mo shonsa agus airson mo mhac, bu toigh leam bhith nas fheàrr na tha mi nis. Saoil leam gun feum mi leabhar-latha mar seo sgriobhadh h-uile latha. 's ann dhomh tha a' ghàidhlig baileach cuideamach, ach chan eil mi cinnteach air mo sgilean riamh.
So today I believe marks 11 years since I came to Japan which is absolutely strange to me. it both feels like a lifetime and also like yesterday. Time and age are odd travel companions, they both contributes to wisdom and understanding and at the same time pointto the inevitable loss of all things which is quite the thing.
I find it rather odd as well that I am seriously considering ways in which to de-Americanize my life given everything that's happening over in the states. I think a lot of companies such as Google or Meta don't have the greater good in mind and probably have fairly awful intentions for the future and so I'm trying to find ways to exist separate from those companies but there are some limitations for example what do I do about YouTube which is something that I use a lot how can II think a lot of companies such as Google or matter don't have the greater good in mind and probably have fairly awful intentions for the future and so I'm trying to find ways to exist separate from those companies but there are some limitations for example what do I do about YouTube which is something that I use a lot how can I D couple myself from YouTube when there aren't any good alternatives. I could use TikTok but it's a different type of vibe and I'm not really keen. I suppose if he's lucky that I don't really use many other platforms these days.
Some words for today - Gaelic: tha e gun choimeas - he is without parallel. sgàilean gréin - parasol, faigh cuid - partake, anns a' mheadhon uair - in the meantime, solair biadh - to provide food.
Platt: de sik dor över verwunnert - who are about that surprised, hebbt dat nich verstahn - haven't understood it, fiev glääs beer - five glasses of beer, al - already, twölv is en effen tall - twelve is an even number.
Sahidic: a i amahte - i prevailed, ejn tef mesthét - against his hate, hn na weréte - with his feet, awo ntere - and after, f r të he m - he acted like (he does the way of), a i rahtf - I struck him, k hóp mmok - you hide yourself
Japanese: 決め込む - to decide upon, be convinced of, 予期 - expectation, forecast 仮定 - assumption, supposition
Today is a decidedly smoggy day outside, days which I find exacerbate my feelings of unease and overwhelm. It is much easier for me on clear sunny days or when the heavens pour down upon the earth. As this is my first entry, I figured it would make sense to add some context. I Have been suspecting that I am autistic for a number of months based upon reading a lot of things doing tests at embrace autism and watching videos and talking to other autistic people and so much of what I have read and seen aligns with my experience thus I feel it's likely that I am autistic. I suspect getting an official diagnosis here in Japan for an adult will be a little difficult so I have to live with self diagnosis but I want to try and approach this in the most logical and careful way. I shall avoid saying that I am most definitely autistic and instead focus on the maybe and continue to take actions to help me avoid overwhelm.
Some words for today - Gaelic: uachdar - surface, air chinnte - sure, chan eil comas agam air - I cannot help it (not sure of context), fear còngnaidh - helper, bi an iomcheist - to hesistate(or to be in puzzlement perhaps?), chan iongna - no wonder, chan iongna leam e - I am not surprised, iutharn - hell, caineab - cannibis, móille - a delay.
Platt: smiet - throw!, willst du - do you want, twee - two, tucht - a litter of animals, verfreet - delighted, to fröh - too early, utheckt - devised, de rövers - the robbers. I should add that I am still unsure of the use of demonstrative pronouns and articles in the language.
Sahidic: anok hóót - As for me (apparently), tiubéf - fought him, hóste - so as/that, nei shaje - these words, holós - at all, rhote - to be afraid, ute - nor, ntëk u - what are you(you what?)